Of Bodhisattvas and Petty Hierophants.
I can only guess at why you are here, reading this. I imagine you’re looking for answers. Without knowing the reason for your journey, I doubt there is much I can provide in the way of meaning. However I can offer you this, something I read when I was much younger and somewhat lost. Finding myself once again in the place where I began, unsure of which path to take next. At the time it gave me a measure of comfort.
“The quest of the Inner Ring will break your hearts unless
you break it. But if you break it, a surprising result will follow. If in
your working hours you make the work your end, you will presently find yourself
all unawares inside the only circle in your profession that really matters. You
will be one of the sound craftsmen, and other sound craftsmen will know it.
This group of craftsmen will by no means coincide with the Inner Ring or the
Important People or the People in the Know. It will not shape that professional
policy or work up that professional influence which fights for the profession
as a whole against the public: nor will it lead to those periodic scandals and
crises which the Inner Ring produces. But it will do those things which that
profession exists to do and will in the long run be responsible for all the
respect which that profession in fact enjoys and which the speeches and
advertisements cannot maintain. And if in your spare time you consort simply
with the people you like, you will again find that you have come unawares to a
real inside: that you are indeed snug and safe at the center of something
which, seen from without, would look exactly like an Inner Ring. But the
difference is that its secrecy is accidental, and its exclusiveness a
by-product, and no one was led thither by the lure of the esoteric: for it is
only four or five people who like one another meeting to do things that they
like. This is friendship. Aristotle placed it among the virtues. It causes
perhaps half of all the happiness in the world, and no Inner Ring can ever have
it.”
C.S. Lewis. – The Inner Ring